Today was a rough one I have to admit. Work was going well, and I was taking care of my patients just moving right along. I was getting an older gentleman ready and he started to ask questions about me. After some chatting he asked me If I was married, yes...how long I was a Nurse, and so on....Then he asked me if I had any children. I replied No. He responded by telling me how I'm really missing out and that I'm really missing something not having children. I held back my tears (not for long) and told him I had lost a baby 2 years ago and have had a tough time ever since. Of course he felt terrible, but I don't care.
I composed myself long enough to finish his IV and get out the door. I could feel it brewing and one of my fellow Nurses asked me If I was ok, and bam the flood gates open. I couldn't hold the tears back any longer.
It's been a very long time since I've cried like this over pregnancy/miscarriage stuff. I think about it every single day, but today was difficult.
I just really really wish people would think before they speak. You never ever know what kind of battle someone is fighting on the inside...
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(((HUGS)))
I agree. Sometimes it can be avoided and sometimes it can't. Too bad this guy didn't just leave it at "no" and move on...
Even with the best of intentions...people can still hurt with their words far more than they'll ever know.
Sending you lots of love from Joshland.
Be the strong woman we all know you are. Your personal business is nobody eleses. You don't have to explain yourself to anyone. And yes you are a mother. You carried a child in you womb...no matter how long. You nurtured it and loved it. Why things happen the way they do,God only knows. Hang in there sister...your dreams will come true again. Somehow, someday you will succeed and will be blessed.
Thank you all from the bottom of my heart. I just had a rough day, and really needed to vent. Thank you for your kind words, and support. <3
I can't tell you how many times this has happened to me. Although are situations are a little different, I can totally relate. It makes me so angry! People think they have all the answers and always want to give advise about having children...the other day a woman said to me "When you finally decide to have children, you will see how wonderful it is." The funny thing is, I don't just come out and say I can't have kids. I just smile, and usually go home and cry. Jess, I know its not easy and its not fair, but you are not alone. And I think you are very brave for being so honest.
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