Sunday, June 21, 2009

Dear Pop,



I can hardly believe that today marks 2 years since you passed away. First thing this morning you're what I thought of, followed by lots of tears. I still struggle everyday with missing you so much. I hope you know that not one single day has gone by where I haven't thought of you, or where I haven't missed you with all of my heart. Every night in my prayers I ask you to keep watching over all of us and keep us healthy and safe. You do Pop and I thank you for that.

I know that you are here with me, and sometimes I think I can even feel your presence around me. You've been in my dreams a couple of times over these last 2 years. You've "told" me things in these dreams that I will never forget because they were so very real to me. You've told me things about my health (CF) and about having children. It saddens me sometimes when I wake up from these dreams because for that small amount of time I thought you were here with me again. However I wouldn't trade it for anything because to me it's your way of "talking" to me.

A lot has happened over these last 2 years. Eventhough you're aren't physically here I know you've been here and are with our family. Despite the miscarriage still hurting me daily, I hope that baby that was lost is with you now and that down the road things will work out.

Pop we miss you terribly and hope you know how much you are loved. I do a lot of things that you did...take a million and one pictures to try to capture every memory. Also eat steamed crabs (our favorite) like a champ. Where ever you are Pop I hope you are ok now and healthy again. I hate that Pancreatic Cancer took you from us 2 years ago already. On the flip side you taught us all so much, and that was to live each day to the fullest because you truly just don't know....

Happy Father's Day Pop! I miss you....

4 comments:

RunSickboyRun.com said...

Very touching post, thank you!

I responded to your question on my blog to make sure I didn't miss anything!

Ronnie

Somer Love said...

Jess

You made me cry... This is a beautiful tribute to your Pop.

Xo

Jess said...

Aww thanks Ronnie and Somer! :)

Heidi said...

I am sorry you lost your dad. What a sweet post! Thanks for commenting on my blog. I love finding new CF'ers! You rock, you busy girl! I think it's amazing that you are a nurse! Something I wanted to do, instead I became a medical transcriptionist!