Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Mom Update (still In)

First off, I'd like to thank you all from the bottom of my heart for your loving comments, concerns, FB messages, etc. I am so fortunate to have such wonderful friends, and I am grateful for you all so much. It makes difficult and trying times like these easier with the strength of friends and family.

So a lot has gone on the last few days. To sum it up, she had an EGD and Colonoscopy in the hospital. The Dr. that consulted her I'm not a big fan of. I used to work at that hospital and unfortunately (or fortunately) know too much. So I talked to the Doctors @ my practice, they were on the phone immediately to help my Mom. Turns out one of my Docs did her procedure which made us feel a ton better. My Mom has one small but powerful advocate on her hands ;)
The Dr. called me personally to tell me the cause of her anemia was not and GI abnormality thank goodness! So no cancer, masses, polyps, etc. She has "Macrocytic Anemia" and long story short she is extremely Folic Acid deficient. Deep breath and sigh of relief, this is an easy fix.

Since Mom is "stable" she was transferred yesterday to a Nursing Home for Physical Therapy and rehabilitation. I'm happy that she is making progress, but am not thrilled she's in a Nursing Home. I've done clinical rotations there, and know the heart break of working there, and the sadness of those poor patients. I keep telling myself Mom's not there long term, just for P.T. and then she can come home. It's just heart wrenching, and sad. I'm the kind of person who wants to save everyone, and take all those little cuties home with me and rescue them.

I just got home from visiting Mom there for the first time. It was sad, and as soon as she saw me she cried....a lot. Heck, I did too, because it just doesn't feel right not having her at home with my Dad. However she's got to do this, and we're behind her every step of the way.

I've taken a step back and realized how true it is that my CF has to come first. I'm certainly no good to her, my Dad, or anyone If I'm not healthy. I should know better, but I guess seeing your Mom go through stuff, makes it hard for me not to want to take care of everyone else first. But I'm happy to report, I've been going to the gym, getting a lot more rest, and am feeling great. Run down at times, but making sure my health is first and foremost. I even treated myself yesterday to a fresh haircut and highlights. It's the little things :)

We have a long road ahead of us, but are in progress of knocking those road blocks down, one by one. Thank you all for your continued support and prayers. XO


Heidi said...

I am glad to hear mom is on the road to recovery! It is a very hard thing to have to face, our CF coming first! But it is so important. Sometimes it just takes us a while to realize it!

Hang in there and keep up the good work on YOU!

Anonymous said...

Jess, I'm so glad they have her on the road to recovery. I know how hard it is to see your parent in that state and in such a place. But like you said, you need to take care of you!! Keep on keepin' on girl!!


Katey said...

Glad to hear it's not cancer or anything else too serious! I will continue to pray for your Mom, especially for her to regain strength so she can get home and out of the nursing home. I've had several grandparents spend time in nursing homes (both independent living somewhat, and some skilled living/nursing care). It's a very hard place to see loved ones! But I'm sure she is in good hands, and yes, it's only temporary! Praying for you too! Love ya!