Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Sorry to Disappoint

Have you ever felt like no matter what you do it’s just not enough? Or maybe it’s that your efforts just aren’t noticed? Perhaps that’s how I’m feeling these last few weeks. I don’t like to focus on the stressful stuff, but rather just go day to day and make the best of situations and do my best. Well sometimes best isn’t good enough.

I’m doing my best to take care of myself first and foremost. Let’s face it, even in rough times there’s no room for skipping treatments or the gym. It’s just not something I do. So it’s become a struggle to keep up with work, gym, help Dad with taking care of my parent’s dogs on my way home, try to visit Mom at Nursing Home (if time allows), then feel the guilt of not visiting, attempt to fix dinner (not happening) and spend quality time with my husband, try to get to bed early, only to get up at 4:30 am and get to work to start the cycle all over again. And that my friends, is every single day.

Needless to say that leaves me no time to try to keep up with the phone calls, messages, and emails that have been accumulating for the past month. I’m sure, scratch that, I know that I’ve pissed off some of my family members with my lack of phone skills and updates on my Mom. Is it on purpose? Of course not, but I’m doing my best and I just wish people were a little more understanding, that’s all.

On top of these daily life fiascos right now, Scott’s Grandfather passed away. Poor guy has lost 2 family members in 2 weeks. Thinking positively that this is all happening for a reason, and will calm down soon….


Josh said...

Hang in there, Jessica! These are the moments where we test our strength. If there were no challenges, life wouldn't be worth living! I know have been say this a lot to you, but I truly believe in you and have hope that things will settle down for you soon.

Do the best you can with what you've got. That's all we can ask of ourselves and what we should expect from others.

Lots of love and peaceful things.

Katey said...

Praying things calm down soon...you definitely have a stressful and busy schedule. Do the best you can...and remember to take care of yourself most of all....but I know that is sometimes hard to balance when you have other family situations going on. Like you said...everything happens for a reason...and God is always right there with ya. So hang in there! Sorry about Scott's grandfather!